Confused shd be the best word to describe how i am now...there's so much happening here in me..been thinking alot..friend...the man...work...list go on and on...i really miss home now...i want my buddies...well i need a tight hug now...big one pls..:(

This is such boring Chinese New Year that i've ever had...i've been really down these days...CNY has nth to do with me here..very extra ordinary for me at this period of time..i donno why im just not in the mood for anything..all my laughters are so fake..all my action is just for the sake of show..i wanna be myself, why can't i? i dont like all these being watched thingy happening on me..i need freedom folks..cant u understand me? im here for work..not for punishment..i felt like im living in a prison more than a service apartment..yea rite..security besides for safety, there are being the person who watch over our in and out of the apartment, with who, time out, time in, type of vehicles, car number plate, and then information will be sent to where?*only god knows*and then it will lead to alot of unwanted rumours bout shits...as long as i didnt betray the company then why wanna do this to us? im being mentally disturbed..this is not what i want! gosh..fear is the biggest threat for me now...guess i've been stressing out too much since the day i arrived in this hell place..well i like the place i stay..im fine with my work (rephrase- im fine with wht i have to do but not with who i have to do), im just being watched for every of my movement..worst than a child getting their curfews from parents...i HATE IT really...huhu..im having flu now..

anyway to those who are enjoying, i wish u all Happy Chinese New Year, and to those who are not really enjoying,, don't be..cuz im worst..:(